Szervusz!

I want to road trip across America.. I need to see New York, San Francisco, Chicago, Salt Lake City, Los Angeles, Portland, Atlanta, Miami maybe visit New Orleans and Las Vegas again…
I want to travel across Europe and see the Romanian diaspora that is spread all over in London, Paris, Barcelona, Copenhagen, Rotterdam, Milan and visit other places.. I want to travel across my motherland and see it’s incredible beauty… I want to go to Vienna again and I know I will get to see Budapest…
Maybe if lucky enough I will get to see Japan at one point in my life..

Here I am day dreaming again instead of focusing on what is important and at hand…
I know some of these travels will be done alone, some with friends and maybe even strangers that will become new friends. Although I wish I would have a companion with me for this incredible journey of life I know I am asking a lot since no one sane will drop the things they are doing in order to embark on a trip with me because they know it will not last forever, but nothing does including goodbyes.
I feel like most of the time we walk alone and people come and go… I know this, but there will always be essential people in our life that will be there no matter what. I know that the dynamic of life changes interpersonal relationships and good memories last a life time. I want to have more good memories with friends and people I consider important in my life. I want people to have fond memories of me… When people think of me I want them to look back and say: ” Andi was a crazy motherfucker!” that being said in a good way with a smile on their face… If you have bad memories of me, well I hope I can erase them and replace them with a better one, for real.

I know the day I cease existing my soul will not go to heaven nor hell. I will roam over the earth finishing the journey I did not complete in my life looking for something I lost and never found again. I could be a ghost, an entity that is traveling everywhere until one day someone or something will set me free, coming back on this earth as a bird flying over the land and singing all the time…

How can I achieve this crazy daydream of mine? I don’t fucking know…. I know I can work anywhere in the U.S. and it will be easy for me to work inside the E.U… I know I can relearn German if I need to do so and if I would have the dedication I could learn some basic spanish. But for that I need to become desirable and a person that people will want to hire, or at least work with. Being an artist would be great as well and just do shows in galleries. But there I go daydreaming again..

Life isn’t that short unless you die young… Chances are we will live to be at least 60.. I have at least 40 more years to live if I stop smoking.

I’ve been thinking and making analogies and life is a journey with one final destination, but it’s not the destination that matters, it’s the trip itself that matters most and changes us with the characters that come along the way. I find inspiration in a lot of my friends but sometimes it’s hard to see hope.. We are tired, comfortable and beat up sometimes. Life is hard and being able to do what I have written above would be a gift from the gods and I would consider myself blessed.

P.S. I enjoy writing my thoughts down and wish to work on this skill, because I have interesting things to say and can say them like no one else.. Which makes me wonder if the people that know me hear an accent in my writing or if they imagine how my voice sounds as I read the text above… :)